OK, SO NEW DOCTOR, OLD PROBLEM. I AM FAT. REALLY? NO SHIT! I AM MORBIDLY OBESE...YUP, KNEW THAT TOO. I DO NOT NEED A FERTILITY SPECIALIST, PROCEDURES OR MEDS...JUST TO LOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT, AT LEAST ENOUGH TO GET ME FROM OBESE TO OVERWEIGHT...THAT I DID NOT SEE COMING!! I LOVE MY NEW DOCTOR. L-O-V-E HER!! YOU WOULD THINK THAT AFTER BEING TOLD THAT I AM IN NEED OF A SERIOUS FAT ASS OVERHAUL I WOULD BE PISSED. I AM NOT. I ACTUALLY JOINED J*ENNY CR$AIG THE DAY BEFORE MY APPOINTMENT AND WAS ALL READY TO TRY AND LOSE AT LEAST 50 LBS BY AUGUST SO WE CAN GET ME PREGNANT, NOT BECAUSE ANYBODY TOLD ME TO BUT BECAUSE I COULD JUST NOT IMAGINE PUTTING ANYMORE WEIGHT ON MY BODY AND HAVING A HEALTHY PREGNANCY. WELL, 50 IS NOT ENOUGH, SHE SAID I NEED TO LOSE DOUBLE THAT AND TAKE ABOUT A YEAR TO DO IT SO I KEEP IT OFF. I SAID "BUT DOC, I AM OLD AND RUNNING OUT OF EGGS ACCORDING TO MY EX-RE, I DON'T HAVE THE TIME TO TAKE A WHOLE YEAR!!" SHE SAID. "YOU ARE ONLY 33 AND LETS FACE IT, YOU AREN'T GETTING PREGNANT RIGHT NOW ANYWAY, THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOUR EGG RESERVE AND YOU COULD TAKE A YEAR, LOSE THE WEIGHT AND GET KNOCKED UP RIGHT AWAY" SHE ALSO SAID "IF I KNEW THAT YOU COULD LEAVE MY OFFICE AND GET PREGNANT TODAY, I WOULD TELL YOU NOT TO! YOU HAVE A HIGHER RISK OF HAVING A BABY WITH BIRTH DEFECTS, A C-SECTION, HIGH RISK PREGNANCY, DIABETES, STROKE ETC... THAN NOT BEING ABLE TO GET PREGNANT BC OF WAITING A YEAR." SHE IS FUCKING AWESOME!! I SO HOPE THAT I CAN DO THIS AND THAT SHE IS STILL THERE WHEN I GO BACK NEXT YEAR B/C I CAN'T THINK OF ANYONE I WOULD TRUST MORE THAN HER. SO FOR ONCE IN MY 33+ YEAR STRUGGLE WITH WEIGHT...I AM HAPPY SOMEONE TOLD ME TO GET OFF MY FAT ASS AND GET HEALTHY RATHER THAN SUGAR COATING IT WITH HOW BEAUTIFUL I AM AND HOW YOU COULD NEVER TELL HOW BIG I WAS AND SO ON AND SO FORTH. SO FOR THE NEXT YEAR OR TILL I GET THE HELL OUT OF OBESITY CENTRAL I AM GONNA DEVOTE TIME AND EFFORT TO MYSELF FOR A CHANGE. I AM GONNA GET HEALTHY AND PREPARE MYSELF FOR BEING PREGNANT AGAIN. WHILE WE ARE AT IT, WE ARE GONNA FIND A HOUSE WE LOVE AND HELP OUR KIDS GET THROUGH THE EVILS OF FRESHMAN YEAR. TODAY IS MY NEW YEAR. TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF THE BEST OF MY LIFE.
