OUR NEVER ENDING STORY

JUST WHEN I THINK I CAN SEE THE HAPPY ENDING AT THE END OF ALL THIS...IT TURNS OUT TO BE MORE OF A "TO BE CONTINUED"

LONGEST STORY SHORT- AFTER ANOTHER CYCLE OF RETRIEVAL OUR FINAL COUNT OF 3 DAYS ON ICE IS 10. WE WERE GOING TO DO ANOTHER CYCLE RIGHT AWAY BUT HAVE BEEN PUT ON A FORCED BREAK BY THE DOCTOR. I DIDN'T DO WELL THIS LAST CYCLE OF MEDS AND HAD AN AWFUL LOT OF CYSTS INSTEAD OF EGGS. SO BACK ON THE BIRTH CONTROL PILLS TO REGULATE MY CYCLE AT THE END OF MARCH. UNLESS WE HAVE AN AMAZING CYCLE WE WILL STILL DO ANOTHER RETRIEVAL AFTER THAT AS WELL. WE ARE AIMING FOR A JUNE TRANSFER BUT I THINK MOST LIKELY IT WILL BE MORE LIKE JULY. I AM EXHAUSTED AND MISERABLE AND FEEL BROKEN AND DEFEATED BUT I AM STILL CHUGGING ALONG AS STEADY AS I CAN. MAYBE IT WOULD BE A LOT EASIER IF LIFE AROUND THIS JUST STOPPED BUT ALL THE CRAZINESS AROUND ME IS STILL GOING FULL FORCE. WE WILL SEE IF I MAKE IT THE WHOLE WAY WITHOUT HAVING A BREAKDOWN.

ON A SIDE NOTE, TOMORROW THE WIFE AND I ARE TAKING OR BOYS TO LOOK AT THEIR FIRST COLLEGE. I KNOW THEY ARE ONLY SOPHOMORES BUT TIME GOES SO FAST WE ARE TRYING TO GET A HEAD START. PLUS, IT MAY BE GOOD TO HAVE A MOMENT JUST ABOUT THEM.