SO NOT MUCH GOING ON EXCEPT THE USUAL CHAOS OF AN IVF CYCLE. I WENT BACK TO NHFC THIS PAST MONDAY. DAWN TOOK THE DAY OFF AND CAME WITH ME. SHE WAS MAD AS A HATTER (ANOTHER ALICE IN WONDERLAND REFERENCE) THAT THE LAST FET DIDN'T TAKE. THE NIGHT BEFORE WE CAME UP WITH A LIST OF QUESTIONS AND CONCERNS. THAT MORNING SHE GOT HERSELF ALL RILED UP (WHICH IS ALWAYS GOOD WHEN WE GO THERE) AND READY TO GO TOE TO TOE. SHE GOT SHIT DONE OR AT LEAST SHE GOT OUR FEELINGS AND QUESTIONS ABOUT WHY SHIT ISN'T GETTING DONE OUT IN THE OPEN. I GO THERE AND INSTANTLY FEEL HELPLESS, VULNERABLE AND BROKEN. SO, WHEN I AM ALONE I NEVER MANAGE TO DO MORE THAN NOD AND AGREE TO DO AS I AM TOLD (VERY UNLIKE MY NORMAL PERSONALITY) ANYWAY, SHE RIPPED DR. Z A NEW BUTTHOLE. I THINK EVERY TIME SHE DOES THAT I FALL IN LOVE WITH HER ALL OVER AGAIN. HOWEVER... IT DIDN'T MAKE MUCH DIFFERENCE. HE STILL SAYS EVERYTHING LOOKED GOOD WITH ME AND THE EMBRYO AND THERE SEEMS TO BE NO PROBLEMS SO IT JUST MAY HAVE BEEN THAT EMBRYO, WHILE PERFECT LOOKING, HAD SOMETHING WRONG WITH IT. HE WANTS TO KEEP ME ON AN UNMEDICATED CYCLE FOR AS LONG AS POSSIBLE AND SAID BASICALLY WE JUST KEEP GOING. SO HEAD MEET WALL...AGAIN...AND AGAIN...WASH RINSE REPEAT. SO PLEASE KEEP YOUR FINGERS, TOES, EYES AND WHATEVER ELSE YOU CAN CROSSED FOR US. MAYBE THIS WILL BE THE ONE TO MAKE IT ALL THE WAY.
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Got it ALL crossed!
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